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The following post comes from a thought diary dated 21st July 2006.
It was written when I was 20.
I felt like copying it out.

Can anyone find their home?
Depends how much they think about it. Sure people feel at home in certain places, but without too much consideration they succumb to the most inevitable of human feelings: ambition.
Built as we are, we are never content - psychological fact. We know this because we are a species of strict natural selection. Why settle for less. Happiness is not concrete. So it seems people only find their home if they numb their mind to the distractions that pester their satisfaction. Unless you define home differently. If home is said to be a place where you feel most comfortable - then - certain havens could be called home. People need shelter or they become delirious and insane. Insane - or more sane, or conformity?

(There's more to life than spinach) - when I discover the meaning (fully) of this epigram I will tell the world. Without subterfuge. For now it excites my mind that I continue to recall it. It must fall somewhere between my purpose and past. I have release, but is that all? Confidence is ephemeral - as soon as it is noticed it disappears. It has to be wholly innate for it to function optimally, or is it but a farce? Yet such confidence cannot be confined and degrades to arrogance - by nature - so it must be kept at bay in the name of morality. Morality? Whose? Which cult's? Don't think I could be driven to Raskilinkoff action as I possess less anxiety and more relief. Tautologies stop it regress.

Happiest moments of my life were when new things were occurring - in familiar situations and places I was free. Maybe I do need more time in education - at my own disposal. World is full of obnoxiousness and marionettes. Floating the air thing breath.

Humour is sacred and should be embraced with utmost gratitude. There is no shame in it. Yet others often do the right thing - people are good - but - why - there is built in warmth - And I now see it - as it has been all along - Never cease the flow KI, unto you as onto others --------->